Forever Dreamer

2008-07-31T08:54:00.004+08:00

My heart is lonely
I feel so bare
I'm drowning quickly
In my despair
Forsaken feelings
Deserted days
Secluded soul
And weary ways
Trapped in my reclusive life
Solitude cuts me like a knife
In a solitary atmosphere
Crying a single neglected tear
Isolated the one and only
I am lost, I am lonely

2007-10-27T15:02:00.001+08:00

well, this comiong wednesday is my exams. theory n practical.

hopefully, i can nail this exam n proceed to the land checkpoint.

this job that i have, i need to see the possibilities. need to foresee myself in the near future. which way can it be? which department shall i be?

hope whatever i plan, is god willing.

currently, i'm in a state of euphoria. of having someone close & to spend time with.

hope this will go far & long.... love u dear.

ORD!!

2007-06-09T08:40:00.000+08:00

yes.. Finally, i have ORD. Served my 2 yrs faithfully without a hiutch. now i can continue on with something else other than guns.

can start to go for job interviews all over again.

2007-02-11T14:25:00.001+08:00

made this collage during my spare time. after hearing to Crying Shame by muse, i felt that i had once again fall for their music. muse is unique.

ok. today , the results for 'O' level are out. hope that my fren will make it and proceed to further education in poly. i know u can do it. i believe in u. believe in urself. wishing u gd luck for ur results.

and dun take it too hard if it doesnt look good. there are many alternatives. private courses. Laselle mebbe? the choices are endless.

SINGAPORE WON THE SEMIS!!!

2007-01-28T14:14:00.000+08:00

after yesterday game, i felt that i was a true, proud LIONS. the singapore team showed that they have chances. a lot but they are lacking in 1 department. their finishing. sure they can build up. passing was mediocre but their shooting was lacking. they really want to shoot in the box. i shldnt benchmark them again other country. but it was a good performance. chanting the good old "ole,ole ,ole" and the kallang wave. first time experience at the stadium which i wont forget.

the crowd was awesome. esp this indian-muslim guy. not the average joe. keep on throwing hilarious comment. abt the ref decisoin not togive a card to the malaysian players. "kad jemputan pun bole"* means invitation card also can give. keep on taunting the botak player. "botak bodoh".

now that i felt the action singapore will face thailand. an impossible task i wld say. so i can only say, singapore have to dream on. no clinical finishing. 2nd is good enough. wld wanna go to the kalalng stadium for the finals. shld enjoy myself. haha.

promised!

2007-01-23T22:57:00.000+08:00

ok. i promised to post pictures regarding the concert. well, here are some that nare near the stage. i love this one.

shows how much Matt bellamy is into the song. which i had a close up wif him.

other pics.

2007-01-17T11:32:00.000+08:00

1 more thing before i go. my ears are deaf at the moment. so i might not be able to hear my ringtones that well. give me ard 3 more days and i think it shld be ok by then. can hear ringing sounds at my ears. hope it not for long. dun wanna get tinnitus.

MUSE DAY after

2007-01-17T11:18:00.000+08:00

woke up at 11. late for camp. shld be there are 1 plus. gotta rush. gonna upload the pics once i got time. just this.MUSE concert rocks.MUSE can rock my socks. met some old frens. overall, i didn't regret it.exp that my ears are still ringing from the sounds. LOUD like hell. k. upload when pics are in my hands.

here the entrance pic of the place.

for those who dun like the original, here's the pic 1 corrected.

2007-01-14T23:20:00.000+08:00

hey. shld have stayed at home today. it rained the whole day. not heavy but the temp was cold. got to my bones.

so i went to recce/explore the place before the concert takes place. did i get lost at first. walk ard fort canning. instead of meeting the gate i walk ard till i got to the keramat. st first i smelled some usual traditional smell. didn't realize i was near the keramat till i saw something in yellow. luckily i screamed in side of myself.

so here's a pic i took from the place. the poster.

its near some spice garden. need to go up the staircase. i guess i can lead the way. saw a bit of construction being made. kinda a small stage. maybe more works being added tmr. well, hope it does rain on tues. pls god, i pray to u. i want to see this concert thru if this is my last wish in life. pics showing the concert being held. infront of fort canning centre.

c u guys there. make sure u come early. n bring a jacket or raincoat. the weather seems not certain these few days.

3 more days till MUSE concert

2007-01-13T01:30:00.000+08:00

ok. MUSE are coming to Singapore to hold their first ever concert here. i'm so gonna be there.

amazingly, the second week of this yr(2007) seems kinda slow. i dunno how to explain it but i feel as if i'm dreading every single day. teaching, training is already there. like something is missing. i think its the messaging. used to msg ppl like hell. but this year, i've been kinda quiet. in deep thoughts.

blame myself for being too committed. guess that the way its gonna be. how i wish i could just disappear. guess this is life. u cant always get what u wanted.

sigh. now i'm just gonna back to my studies. learn back what i left out 2 years ago. decided to study part-time. either i'm going for a another diploma part-time, or getting a degree from SIM. but must find werk first. gotta finance myself first. hope the way of life is easier than the army. Hope GOD gonna shine me the way.

i hope i made the right move. to just fade away and not to complicate things. wouldn't want bad karma. just not me. so i hope everything gonna be fine in this new year. no more sudden deaths please.

20 weeks

2007-01-06T01:48:00.000+08:00

now I'm counting down the number of weeks before i ORD. cant wait..

but first, the week i got back to camp..

the Wednesday was a outfield
so tuesday night, i bk in. then came the first shock.. draw weapons..so i woke up early in the morning to draw. ok. then went to draw ammo. easy stuff. till the training comes. which was tough as i was still in civilian mode. went till 4pm when heavy rain came. was totally drenched by the time i ran back to base camp. rain thru the night. ccold n freezing nite it was. damm, i hate rain.

nxt morning kena ambushed. had to fight 'enemies'. one that never dies. soon the number of casualty rises. then have to evac to base camp. which was some distance. heavy casualties are a so lazy. should have drop them in the river. complain too much.

by the time exercise finished, was totally drained. could doze off in any possible position. even standing. shagged at the end of the day. by friday, body was aching. man, i wished i had yoko yoko wif me to heal faster.

haha. then i started to view death as the end of the line after death. no need to be afraid. just be prepared cause u nv know when its ur turn.

life is just a game. shld enjoy life while i still can. back to my happy mood. but kinda worried for that someone. dunno what she's up to these days.. too quiet. busy with something that i dunno. hope everything fine with her. damm exhausted 4 tonite. after finish camp, went to repair comp. out of goodwill but was rewarded. argh, could use some extra cash.

cant wait for MUSE to come.MUSE!!

part 2

2006-12-30T23:54:00.000+08:00

i feel sad. after the death of my maternal uncle, now comes the death of an aunt on my paternal side. this comes as a shock to me. this aunt has been looking after me like her god son. cause she has a son which was given birth to just 3 days after my birth. he was born the same year exp that he was born disabled and later on died when he was still young.

so this aunt always pampered me and i feel kinda of bad. i wanna repay her but she has just passed away.

being in this religious procession has made me get to know some thoughts of some adult. i'm just a quite observer. just keep comments to myself n smile if i need to. adults have a different thinking of life. politics. US. IRAN.IRAQ. all this war. they just give their view. but let me ask an ultimate qn. can they made a difference. if cant what the use of just talking. do something. if cannot, just keep ur mouth shut. not rude but cant there be any other topic than this during a death ceremony.

went to do all the same procession again. this time was faster as compared to the Tuesday death. been bz lately. army starting on jan 3rd. guess no more going out.

death surrounds me. first my maternal side. now my paternal side. who's next?

part 1

2006-12-30T23:52:00.000+08:00

an uncle of mine has just passed away. It happen on the 26 Dec '06.
I was shocked but i was able to take the news due to my work in the medic field. my mom on the other hand too the news hard. she was crying a lot and all i could do was console her.

In the morning, it was already raining. It rained the whole day and the morning was spent to wash the dead. it took quite long. U have to be calm and careful as not to put too much pressure. won't wanna hurt his body on earth. might cause him to suffer when he is in another realm.

after done with the procession of cleaning the body, then its time to wrap him up. after which, it was the last respects before bringing him back to the pusara aman.(place where they bury the dead)

The weather was GREAT!!. it rained the whole day. from morning till the time we reah the site. it showed no signs of stopping. but the burial have to take place. so we went there barefooted wont wanna get the slippers stuck to the mud.

so once there, they needed 2 volunteers. i tot since there are 2 older cousins, i wld not be the chosen one. but then all of the sudden, they(the cousins) called out my name. my NAME. i obliged and then went into the burial pit. it was wet and muddy. i had to receive the body first, then pass it to my other uncle. heavy at first but then light when i handed the upper body over to my uncle. it was chaos with all the rain.

once it was done, i was caked in mud. when to washed up. no tap water, have to use a pit where it stores water. the pit was deep and i could foresee an accident to happen any moment.

once washed up, final respects before heading for home. once home changed to new clothes. never bring spare but luck was on my side. spare suit found according to my size at the house. talk abt luck.

once changed, a ceremony was being held to commemorate the first night.
some say his spirit will come to the house but which house, it will be uncertain. some of my relatives are afraid to go home. but i dunno why they shld be afraid.. he wont hurt u. he just wanna say his last goodbye.

this goes on for 3 nights. i mean just the ceremony, not the burial. the dead stays dead. it was tiring. i was told to do this and that. man i hate to be given jobs with no time limit. everything seems to be in a rush. esp when ur parents have high expectations from u.

end of instructor period

2006-11-25T12:03:00.000+08:00

finally coz hav ended. Having the lull period time. clearing leave now n then.

seems that when my trainees left, i was left with this impression. Life comes n go. Look at the trainees. They come to me. Their path lead to me. However, once they have enuf knowledge, its time for them to go. It may be sad but looking @ the other seniors, they seem able to take this quite well. I shld learn from this. able to know when its time to leave n so on.

Realised that life has to go on. Made me think of all the things that i have done. I shld have remain the was i was b4.

Just wanna be left alone. thats just all i ask from u. Till i wake up, from this world.

Break!!

2006-10-23T05:29:00.000+08:00

I'm currently on a long break. started from last friday nite till this thursday morning. a well deserved break i wld say. cause i have been slaving myself to the trainess for every morning. @ 4am, wake up, bring them. expt 4 2 occasions when i was totally shagged out n told e trainess to march properly on their own. yay, finally an end to that.

so as the days comes closer, i realised i wasnt prepared for hari raya yet. i haven buy my hari raya clothes. traditional yes. 1 week b4 hari raya, but the songkok, and samping was yet to seen. So yesterday, while @ geylang(finally, i got time to go there for this yr hari raya), i manage to get a songkok, but for samping, scared tk matching. so ape samping yg ade kat rumah, jadikan je lar. its only for day 1. then nite went 4 more shopping.

so this monday. gonna go for a haircut at my sis fren's shop.. hope dier tahu potong. feels like i'm gambling here. so this afternoon, gonna b missing 4 the haircut. hmm i just realise, i got a prob. sap yg nk beli mentabak. need to go pasir ris 4 the mentabak, n bedok 4 haircut. both take place in afternoon. wish i cld clone myself.. multi tasking.

also, last sat, met a new fren. a teacher trainee. by the time i ORD, she wld have passed out from NIE. from her, i wld get to noe more abt teacher stuff. i can see its mentally n physically draining. need to prepare lesson plan,exams paper. no such thing as a slacking job. but if i were to go for NIE, i wld take ard 4 yrs to complete. that 4 yrs. after spending ard 3 yrs in poly, 4 yrs seem long. still deciding wat to do after army. Do i hear paramedic? or teacher. ultimately i just wanna earn $$. 7 mth 2 go.. still have time to decide. but surely, i wont sign on army. thats the last thing i wld do. esp injured knee boy.

friday the 13

2006-10-13T23:22:00.000+08:00

wat a day today was... never manage to wake up for the ' sahur '. so had to go hungry 4 the day. then, morning, JBL can down to the wos room. of the whole week, today. luckily mad eit in time. so was given a talk abt non camera phone. blah blah.

so morning went well. i was just too tired so i volunteered to be the casualty. really gamble as today lesson was spinal 2. was taped to the spinal board. luckily, i was not that much scared when they put me on the board, raising to the highest level possible. was too tired, so i slept thru the whole lesson. yay!

since today i was on duty, i was the last tone to go home. when the last trainee was sent home, it was already time to break fast. i hate fridays. esp on fasting mth.

otw way back home, i forgot abt my hp. went back to take.
2nd round, at bus stop, forget to take my ex link.
too lazy to go back camp, so i used coins.
damm, today is really friday the 13. almost midnight. hope this will end today. cause tmr is going to teach trainees . arghh. wat have i got myself into.. gonna be quiet this few days. just wanna gather back my thoughts. feel kinda low atm. no 1 to talk to. boring.

Dance dance

2006-10-08T19:37:00.000+08:00

wat a fasting day for me... fasting while having diarrhea. luckily try to control. dun wanna lose too much fluid.

for this post, just wanna say tat i kinda feel lost. @ home, there no siblings. then when buka, cuma ade parents. quite a bore. mebbe my family is cracking up. i just feel that i need to be alone.. need to stay away from the others. dad talk way too muc. want this, that.

I'm not looking forward to this yrs hari raya. just cant wait till the end of this yr. wanna get a better stable job after NS. really, the $$ earned is peanuts..

dunno if today got time @ nite 2 go cut hair. life has serve no purpose.

ps. who is the iheardyou. can i get a hint or something. cause my blog is kinda of low profile.

life as in instructor is sure hectic

2006-09-30T15:08:00.000+08:00

wat a week. bringing my trainees from one place 2 another. then teaching them a lot of things. then sending them for breakfast, screening of blood, lunch, break fast, dinner, lecture, cpr. load of things to be done..
luckily admin stuff is not handle by me.. i just handle the trainees themselves. yet to pump them.. not during the fasting mth. god forbid. but if i have to, i will. then prob are poppping up. trainess that went terawih are not not following the rules. went to 7-11 then got caught. nw mebbe they can get their privileages taken away. y nv follow the rules set by us. dissapointed in them.

truly a tiring week. some more no rest till 11 pm then wake up ard 4 am. been a tiring n shag week. wished that i can get more rest. no time to msg that some one. hope she understands. N pls concentrate on ur studies. i dun want to distract ur studies. but it been a lont time since i msg/talk to her. makes me weaker ever since. dunno hw long can i keep it this way. till raya i suppose. yay day 5 already. cant wait till it ends. then my ord is coming closer.. 8 mth 2 ord.

2006-09-14T22:46:00.000+08:00

well left with ard 9 more months before ORD.. cant wait.. next week gonna start my teaching. dunno how its gonna be like.. must be exhausting...

the reason i start this blog... just to write down my tots.
i just cant believe it that its over.. when it was so near yet so far..
now my mind cant think right.. been doing work all day just to keep it off my mind. nw problem is that @ home, there nothing 4 me to do.. so the thoughts are coming back to me.. what did i do? did i take a wrong step? am i the flaw.. guess i will have to live with no answers.

it hurts even more as compared when she was mad.. now i need a few days of healing.. hope can get well before my teaching starts. i dun understand wat she meant "i realise he is gone before i knew ". i will now fade away quitely, and hope she will lead a happy ever after life. thanks for the journey. May u pass ur exams with flying colours and i hope u can stay here and not migrate to KL.

just wanna say that i still love u. but now in a different way. u r a part of my memories. slowly it will fade.

11 more mths 2 ord

2006-07-02T21:15:00.000+08:00

on the 1st july was the day when i had a get together with all those from the cybercentre community. nice to meet them all. watch superman returns... it is a truly a great movie. wld recommend it. that's for sure. talk a lot of crap but feel like the time that passes us by real fast.

now is the 2nd july 2006.. i feel weird today. as if i have lost the plot of the meaning of life... i was sure i had it yesterday wif me...
now i feel as if i have lost something this moment
mebbe its the army..
i'm, just not sure... i better take an early rest before i really do something stupid...
yeah starting tmr, have to stay in. man that sucks.. i wish i got the TDW branch... that wld be great.. but the contradications wld be bad... 1st of all the ord date..
too many wld leave at the same time.

waht is wrong wif me?

2006-05-26T21:50:00.000+08:00

1 more yr to ORD.

Injury Strikes Back!!

2005-10-02T13:20:00.000+08:00

ok.. had my old knee injury back. on week 2. tot that i had fully heal. but this time, i was already expecting it. been wearing my knee guard till it STINKS! going to CGH today to see if there's a way to cure it, which i doubt so.

so hope that it gonna be ok. and happy fasting ppl.

my fate is sealed

2005-09-24T18:28:00.000+08:00

my fate will stay at SISPEC. nw, what i can do is to minimize my injury from getting further. have to take glutosamine supplement. and also buy a new knee guard. training is gonna be a new one. can't go into details abt the training but what i can say is that a lot of new arsenal will be learnt. nothing much as a private but i hope to finish as a sergeant. 'cause by then, i only will need to teach only my recruits(hopefully) and not posted out to some unit.

seems that my stamina is improving. at a constant pace and nt huffing and puffing like before. same amgain. tmr bookin in at nite. life is rushing but 2 yrs gonna pass by really fast.

2005-09-16T21:31:00.000+08:00

there's a conspiracy. i knew it. there's someone out there trying to make my life miserable. its already miserable enuf that i got into army. then came a ray of light , during my MP interview. when the posting came out, i was happy that i got MP. so happy at first, till the late afternoon.

come a dreaded phonecall.

SUDDENLY, i was the one who picked it up. "Hello", i said.
"This is 3SG ####, whats yur posting?"
"SAFPU", i said.
"Wrong, u are now infantry leader. SISPEC."
"NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO."

Suddenly, it was a dark and stormy night.
"are u sure?", i said
"u'r mohd firdaus?"
"yes", i said
"yur posting has been changed"
"Y me? i was happy with my MP posting. how can i revert this change?"
"i dunno. call this number 6### ####"

i called and 10 mins later of arguing got me nowhere. man, i feel like shit. worse, i feel better if i just lay and die.

man, i seriously feel like dying.

am i greedy?

2005-09-16T15:15:00.000+08:00

yay. i didn't go to sispec. went to my fav choice. MP. yay.
sigh. y not me? y didn't i get Police academy? Y??

the pro and cons. happy i didn't have to spend another day in tekong animore. but y not in TRACOM? i wanna be a policeman. wannabe policeman. got myself a military policeman.

yay. no more filed camp. no more route march. no more camou on. no more use for pack
1~7. yeap. got my wish. should wish harder.

ahh. what the heck.MP leh . 9 weeks of training. then thats it. yeap. 9 weeks.lets count that in months 2. 1/4 months. less than BMT period. shld be over in no time

could i? should i?

2005-09-15T16:31:00.000+08:00

in 20 hrs time, my posting will be known to me.

i feel helpless, as there nothing i can do to change my posting. i can only hope for the best.

a BBQ pit tonite at east coast. at 8 pm- 10 am. best. but by looking at the weather, its not good. its gonna rain and i hate rainy days. y must it rain. sucks man. wet sand, hard to make fire.. will be shivering.

friendster has new features. but it is so fucking messy. so many links scattered ard. like bird shit.

3 more days before the enjoyment ends.sigh. not looking forward to this new posting. hoping that i will get MP.

BMT over lor....

2005-09-08T16:25:00.000+08:00

finally, i manage to pass out from BMT. didn't see it coming. next moment, its over.

just like that... went through a lot. quite emotional at the end of it. all the good and bad. all the jokes and depressing moment. left me a good impression. we all survived. now got to wait 4 the posting. hoping that i will get the MP posting. regretted for putting 'yes' in the sispec/ocs posting.

will be every single day. just to hang ard s'pore. the movie ' red eye' . DONT WATCH!! it sucks. no thrill at all. lame movie.. make it very lame.

going sentosa tmr.. a last get together. time 4 some fun.woohoo
one last note. POP lor!!

SPOOK SHOW

2005-08-28T19:17:00.000+08:00

thanks isaiah. for the free spook show ticket. it was an impromtu one but hey it was fun. so noisy sia. all the gerls are screaming like crazy. as if they are gonna die. the characters are quite eerie looking. esp the arch-demon. muahaha.. and yes, the magic show.. it was quite entertaining. 2 more hr b4 i book- in. and the feeling of having to leave ninja coy is there.. gonna be emotional.. gonna miss them all.dunno what the future lies ahead for me. hope all the best

1 more week of BMT

2005-08-28T08:53:00.000+08:00

woohoo.. this week is gonna be the last week for me. left with all the test. IPPT,SOC, BAC, and 24 km route march. woohoo.. finally ending BMT. gonna start to pan what to do during the break. ard 1 week of time off. tmr is gonna be a fun day.. recruit's evening. day off.. just sit back and relax.. can't describe the feeling.. i feel happy that BMT is gonna be over. just hoping the next phase is easier than this.

time is against me

2005-08-21T15:49:00.000+08:00

in Army, no matter how strong u are, there is something u can never overcome. its time. u r always against it... like booking out. in less than 30 hrs, u r to wash yur clothes, do yur report, sleep and then buy stuff at Beach RD. not enuf time for me to enjoy... like going to orchard road.. and yesh.. i can finally see the end of BMT. 2 more weeks. and my hair is growing already.. MY HAIR!!! no more botak hair.

sigh need to do a report abt the commanders.. and starting from my O.C. he is a strict guy. i wish he wld gives us a break. having a prob.. dunno who can print the report for me? argh, that can wait..now trying to search the web for new music. bored with the music i had.. muse, strokes, strato, nightwish,metallica.. once heard bored with it.. i need more music..

2 more weeks to go.. left 5 thing to clear.. SOC,IPPT, 16 km,24 km march and live grenade throwing. cant wait to throw my cap.. after BMT. whats next? either 6 mth of sispec training , 9mth of ocs or MAN.

3 weeks liao

2005-08-13T22:27:00.000+08:00

3 more weeks.. left with live range, then SIT test.. next week is quite tough on the body... but after that, will have to do all the parading..

went shopping on sunday... walking ard far east then saw this nice 'the strokes' shirt. color also nice so bought it.. must be mentally alert and nt point my weapon to anione.. if not CONFINEMENT.. after this week, gonna be smooth sailing.. even the sergeant are slacking..

i feel like a foreigner in my own country

2005-08-08T17:31:00.001+08:00

army have really make me lost touch with the world.. i dun knoe what happen in singapore.. when i book out, then i realize its national day ard the corner..

i really wanna do my best in army.. i wanna go to sispec/ocs.. wanna be the best there is..

now where is the graduation pic coming? also wanna get the pictures we took during field camp.. i wanna see myself in camouflage.. ... before after pics.. cool man

field camp

2005-08-06T23:33:00.000+08:00

2 weeks in tekong .. 1 week in coy line another week at field camp.. i truly am grateful with my platoon.. not that really tough...as in the punishment are not the stupid type...

i really appreciate my coy after going thru field camp... all the clothes.. now, i know the definition of dirty..

booked out on sat nite.. booking in on tues..a long break..going town tmr.. enjoying my break.. then going beach road.. looking 4 stuff at army market.

planning what else to do.. cause 4 the next 4 weeks the bookout will be on sat nite or sun morning...

field camp is fun.. u get to fire blanks.. its like CS. but no casualty.
ration food not bad.. for a muslim.. field camp.. give me $300 4 me to go again...and i will not go.. there are other ways to earn $300. 1 more month till POP. time is so restricted in camp... do this & that.. clean rifle.. stand by condition.. wash clothes.. draw rifle in morning..fall in 5 mins time..fill up water bottles..all this are stuck to the head... been doing this 4 3 mths.. still considering wherether to go to sispec/ocs.. if my fitness is ok, will join sispec..

2005-07-23T12:42:00.000+08:00

NS is so much fun. 'chiong' but 'shiok'. once i book in back, i wont be able to bookout 4 2 weeks as there is a 7 days field camp. man, field camp will be HELL. will get yurself dirty all over and some more, training will be tough.. a 8 km route march will begin first, then reach the camp site. from there will begin to dig trenches.. a place 4 us to sleep in. it will be quite shiong.. i really wonder how we gonna do the small & big business... what if i accidently dig up someone else's shit... SURPRISE!!!

going to be shiok once it is over and i having nightmares.. SWIMMING. i don't like to swim. esp in deep pools.. like the 2m pool. i had the same feeling while i was in sec skool. i'm a weak swimmer and 5 yrs later, i forgot how to swim.. again. i blame it on my right knee.. not working properly..

this sat, will be going to changi hospital.. wanna get an x-ray on my knee.. before field camp starts..

on the end note, u can do anything as long u dont get caught. that is how life in army is.

tues

2005-07-12T20:53:00.000+08:00

book out day..
tmr wed is my grad ceremony.. botak man.. heck care. at least can get away from tekong. muahahaha.. tekong is an evil place to be.. can't wait 4 POP.. then want to go to MAN. no to sergeant, no to officer.. cause their training is more hard.

i just want to fuck off after serving 2 yrs in Army...

9 more weeks

2005-07-09T17:40:00.000+08:00

BMT is starting.. arghhh. my body is still aching.

and yes. gonna book out this tues or early wed. gonna get my diploma.. wee. no training 4 wed then.
on monday got swimming. got to buy googles. now reaching the 6 km route march. its going to be tough but wait till 24 km comes.. still searching 4 that cure.. to cure my sore muscle fast.

and yes.. my joins are also feeling the pain.. dun wanna die like the rest of the NSF ppl. help me.. haha

i seem to be having high fever.. so going to book in late. not on sunday night but monday night.. 1 more night in S'pore.

and then booking out on tues night/wed morning. yet 2 be confirm when. going to get my diploma cert.

10 weeks to go

2005-07-02T16:15:00.000+08:00

tired but not shagged. will be going to town to buy cds. muse and strokes.

cause the army prohibited burned cds. they want originals. so had to bring originals.. man, the bunk is really lifeless. need some music . ooh yar. the O.C. told us to prepare a A4 size goal sheet. got homework to do. time is money.. going to prepare, then take a nap. outz

20 hrs to tekong

2005-06-25T23:24:00.000+08:00

Having a fever... will be away by tmr.

brought the stuff needed for NS. feeling a bit drowsy after taking the cough syrup. my body clock is well adjusted at 2230 hrs. can't stay awake 4 long. still trying to see if I can find a cheap cassette player.. ahh, go to cash converter. might find some 2nd hand stuff there. cause will be using it 4 3 mths .. need some music down there. cause all i can hear are emptiness. no life there. ooh and there a girl's company there. Taurus coy. all girls there. damm, why didn't they have to cut their hair? why must we guys sacrifice our hair? must be some conspiracy. and also easier to differentiate between recruites and officers. 1 more week i tekong before bookout day. rumours that a 3km march will be on monday. wah better rest while i still can.

and yes the tagboard is having some difficulties.. it won't take any more messages.. mebbe i should go for other tagboards.

2005-06-25T02:13:00.000+08:00

going back to camp in sunday..
tmr is sat.. not sure if wanna go to beach road.
got a list of stuff to buy. might be lazy and drop to tampines army store instead.
saturday.. what will i do tmr ?

can just laze ard before and round of exercise begins..

back from tekong

2005-06-24T10:55:00.000+08:00

at tekong.. everyday has an exercise. quite tiring. esp when u have to do chin ups by yurself. no time for the hand to rest.

finally managed to go home..
at Tekong, there is no music. quite boring down there.. i'm now trying to bring in a transistor radio with a cassete player attached to it. now figuring out how to record to a cassette player. hmm. can't quite figure that part yet.. some items are to be brought from beach road. but lazy to go there.

last post

2005-06-08T23:03:00.000+08:00

ok. basically this is gonna be abt how i spend the day before i went into tekong.

woke up at 7. raining. yippee. rain helps to water tha plants.

then went to shite..

back to bed until abt 11. then got ready all the stuff. put at the side of my bed.

ard 3 had to get ready. last family dinner. eat "Sup tulang". wasn't prepared as didn't bring enuf tissue and was sweating from the spiciness of it. but it was nice.

then brought a few more accesories that i find are not yet brought.

now fot the first time, i'll be sleeping at 11 pm. how cool is that.

ok see u ard in the next 2 weeks. hope that i won't get tortured. and wanna get all the good food in NS.

cadbury commercial

2005-06-07T09:55:00.000+08:00

i assume that everyone has watched the cadbury commercial. seems that i manages to spot only 2 out of 6. but the most fun was the surfer dude. that makes me wanna go buy cadbury. also, if the world was really made of cadbury, i think to kill my enemies would be to eat them .muahaha . such an easy job. yum yum

Woot~!

2005-06-05T18:36:00.000+08:00

I got a letter from AirForce. ask me that they will be visiting me during BMT. then might recruit some of us.. kinda of excited.

Today went 2 Beach road.Finallt bought the stuff that i need. rushing there, realize that i forgot the list. Then. Luckily, got the shop supplir knows what is needed during BMT.

I think i'm going to die in army.

Hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy(part deux)

2005-06-03T16:38:00.000+08:00

ok .. i regretted watching it. not because of the movie but because of me.. i wasn't in the right mood to begin with. it was funny.. but i was feeling depressed. watching that movie has no effect on me... sure there are jokes but i find them pretty lame. mebbe its because its british humor.

time is running out

2005-06-02T23:30:00.000+08:00

hey ppl. i'm going army in exactly 177 hrs.

Hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy

2005-06-02T13:00:00.000+08:00

Going to the movies today. at cineluisure.
watching hitchhiker.. but can't get mt hopes too high. it may look good but turns out to be sucky. like the movies "gangs in new york", "13th ghost".

Star wars galore

2005-05-23T22:48:00.000+08:00

watch star wars today.
man, i feel wasted.
what is the purpose of life?
i will fnd that soon.
and be a man at tekong.

Days to come

2005-05-17T22:11:00.000+08:00

I just realise.. what i wished 4 never comes true..
like the day i wish to become spider-man.. nope.. still can't stick to walls.
the day i wish arsenal to win EPL. nope.
the day i wish to become police officer. nope. never get letter from spf.
the day i wish that i can head shot everyone during CS at CC. nope.
the day i wished that i can speak Italian. nope, i learnt french instead.

there are 2 possibilites. either i should use reverse phsychology or there is no such thing as a wish.

food fiesta

2005-05-16T22:30:00.000+08:00

what a day. Ben treated me, alvin and 2 of his frens(darwin & unknown guy) to eat at Seoul Garden.Met at 1pm. and then stayed there till 5.30. I'm still up for meore food. But it is kinda of sick as there are not much of choices 4 the meat. Beef or chicken.

The Last Supper. I suppose. but it was fun to meet u guys again. later meet in army. then keng. muahahaha. so 2 more weeks before NS. getting some stuff ready. like clothes. for the night. and some tiger balm. to soothe aching muscle.

Hope that they revise the syllabus for NS. give slack training. heh. I wish.

life

2005-05-11T15:26:00.000+08:00

what is life? life is just an essence that is given to every sub-atomic particle.

ok enuf abt life. life sucks. that is so untrue. it is the problems in life that are causing ppl to hate it. if there is no problems in life, y live thru it?

now i have less than 1 more mth to go 4 NS. this weekend gonna go out with ex-TP. those that have graduate b4 me. wanna ask exp from NS. i seem to like the Breadboard Western. seems nice to eat, once in a while.that's end my blog. MUSE rock my socks!!

tickets to a dance

2005-05-05T23:31:00.000+08:00

we will be spectating a dance tmr.. at 7.. at skool.
tickets cost ard 5 bucks. and there is CCA points. thats the plus point. CCA point.

1 more month till doomsday/armageddon/apocalypse. the living hell. and i'm not ready for it yet.

MUSE is back. i mean , started to listen back to muse. really talented. matt bellamy.
MUSE is quite famous in Indonesia. wonder when they will have asian tour. man, i'm sure to be there.

pondering...

2005-04-25T22:52:00.000+08:00

seems everythinh is a rush to me.. was like a month that i graduated. and now NS next. woah, i need a break. too rushing can lead to stress. and stress lead to anger.

wish me luck in tekong. i just wanna complete this nation thingy and get over it. at least i get some $$$. i wonder how i will look like bald..

improving

2005-04-19T23:44:00.000+08:00

surfing ard and stumble upon this jukebox.. quite cool as it uses flash.. and yes, harder for other ppl to leech. quite troublesome as it uses php.. had to search for non-php. ooh yar.. on 9 June, going tekong. preparing things to go there. like, underwear, coins. hope that i won't be lazy.. i can do it.. must survive.. eh fer, when yur NS.. never hear from u animore?

LeT+er od Do0m

2005-04-17T12:15:00.000+08:00

k, got my NS letter. that sucks. when i was so happy, slacking ard. then they come to me . wasn't expecting it. so won't find a job. instead will play games and enjoy my final days in TP. yeah, play games, i suppose.

hmm, i think there is a racist remark in the story jack and the beanstalk.
Observe the followling line "Fee-fi-fo-fum. I smell the blood of an Englishman.", said the GIANT. sounds racist to me.. i suppose the Giant is a nigger.

makes u think if its true...hmm

Hell Yeah ~

2005-04-10T18:33:00.000+08:00

Results are out. and i passed all. Happy that i will be graduating. But somewhat still fear of th future. can't really adjust to the new world.

Finally can have a long rest. No More SCHOOL! I suppose I will now prepare myself for army.. heard that they have walks that stretch for 10km. i have poor stamina. gonna train my running then. Life seems to stop when u finish school. or it seems so to me. what will happen to me now? Seems that i have no choice but to PLAY CS. yeah . Its CS season again... gonna change this skin. its soo small.

2005-04-07T21:07:00.000+08:00

ok. now sitting at home. waiting for reply regarding some applications. hope to get the work at changi. either luggage or the cd packers. but cd packers sounds tiring. 12 hr shift. hope the pay is not low.

now really hope to pass everything including Java Prof. really wanna leave TP. could die of boredom.

i had a weird dream. i got enlisted in army during july. maybe its a premonition. and how can i avoid this?how????

french open house

2005-04-02T23:21:00.000+08:00

Woot~ when to french open house. I seem to think that french ppl are very free. always like to have parties here and there. Today is the 100th death anniversary of Jules Verne. Happy 100th Death anniversary Jules Verne.

back to the events. went to there for a quiz/test. as a group. fared not bad. but the game was not interactive. Can't interact with other ppl except our group. so we didn't exactly win but every one get prizes. cool if u ask me. same prize like last time. a french movie. but there's extra bonus. a t-shirt and mouse-pad. went there to look at pretty girls(jollie filles). almost till the end, none at sight. got one lar but so damm in front of us. can't see properly and the group was busy doing the quiz.
at the end of the thingy, then we had the prize given out. there was this sweeeEEt girl. a french chick. i knew that i was going to be disappointed.
sweet. hair tied up. man, i can't resist.
after the end of the quiz, there was food served at 7.
we finished ard 5. so decided to go to Lucky Plaza to play pool. went there and i suck. but had fun.
ard 6.30 left and went back to the french house. food was there, but ppl haven't start eating. so went to the linger upstairs. then fadzly found a HP. he shouldn't given to the secruity, who was clueless, . he should try to track the caller instead. cause there's a high chance it could be a french chick.Man, what was he thinking?
i should blame myself as i was in the toilet. chances are hard to come by. and u are slipping one away. Wasted.

One more thing. Be Cool is a movie i would recommend. cause it is similar as compared to SNATCH. SNATCH= British, Be Cool= American.

NB: Jules Verne is a writer. He wrote books like Ard the world in 80 days , mostly Science fiction.

french open house

2005-04-02T23:19:00.000+08:00

french house

2005-04-02T22:49:00.000+08:00

Woot~ when to the french open house. at another location. at newton area down there.
quite boring at first. had a quiz/test. in groups, we were given time to answer question abt Jules Verne. not important abt him. just when there to looks at girls. was dissapointing at first, till the end of the quiz. there was this french chick(jollie fille). she was was wearing a white with red stripe adidas jacket. sweet is what i would say. then at 5, it was over. having a dinner at 7-30. so we went to lucky plaza to play pool. wasn't my suggestion as i suck at it. after an hour or so, went back for food. there was a crowd as many expats were there. so we dig in. but found out that the food was either bread or contain ham. sometimes i wish that there would be halal food. so dig in the chocolate and sood got bloated. at 8 left. the french chick. quite short leh. but when i ghrow up, i want my children to be of mixed blood. that would be so cool....have to change. my self esteem have to go. but crap/shit is here to stay

ooh yar. one last thing. Be Cool is somewhat like SNATCH. its a movie from different aspect. from a british to an american if i were to compare them.

NB. Jules Verne is a writer. and july 2 1905 is the day he died.and ppl are celebrating that today. He wrote ard the world in 80 days. all those science fiction.

~HoLiDaYs

2005-03-29T22:00:00.000+08:00

its the time where ppl are suppose to slack.
but now i wanna find a job. wanna $$$$.
yay, OC back. this thursday. new season. i still miss ANNA.

and the search for a job goes on. and $$$ is low.stupid video doesn't work.
mebbe werking at the airport. hope jobs are there. don't wanna work sales. cause i'm not good with ppl. very shy.

wanna train stamina before NS.

Haha

2005-03-27T09:37:00.000+08:00

yeah. no more papers.. i hope*
now relaxing at home.. currently looking for a part-time job. Any job vacancies,anyone?

I don't wanna be G.I.Joe of Singapore, I just wanna...

Good luck

2005-03-22T22:53:00.000+08:00

good luck to those for exam preparations & most importantly good luck to me.
tmr is the day that will decide .. if i can make it or not.. hope that this subject will be a breeze. which i think not. *cross fingers*

there's the saying that goes "TP4U" if u fail. wahaha

midnight oil

2005-03-20T22:32:00.000+08:00

i'm burning the midnight oil. but currently out of stock.

Currently besotted with the Helena song. the video rocks.
as compared with the i'm not ok video, this one is way better.
i think MCR is going mainstream. quite soon than i expect.

Study WeEk

2005-03-17T15:53:00.000+08:00

its already thursday, and the stuff i study are still not enough. dunno if i can make it. too many distraction during this week.

so this mon, went to the CMPB. they were actually recruiting those that have one thing in common.*Those that have special abilities. for example, i have spider sense. the guy next to me can transform to any object* nah just kidding. they were looking for those that can help in maintaing the CMPB server. then , we put in our record that we were of some computer club when we were in secondary skool. so had to try to answer a few quenstiopn here and there. i felt that my life will be later scrunitised later on in my life. shit.

i am also currently on the prowl for part time jobs. anithing that pays well.i need to earn money.cash.bucks. wanna graduate from this skoool. wanna get out of it. my mind can't take this animore. but first, wanna enjoy the last days at cyber. go eat at mensa. then design. wonders when the ITAS will be open. there's a Marybrown just across the field outside skool. they are recruiting people to work there. mebbe i would try and see their pay rate. get money and then wait for NS. wanna go police but after hearing many bad stories/experiences, begin to wonder what the right choice for me. okok.

also, there a french thingy coming up. my classmates are organising a trip there. dunno if i wanna participate in it. when we went to the school, there were hardly any ppl our age. i mean the french. so dunno what to expect from the "jules vernes" guy.

reminder

2005-03-05T22:36:00.000+08:00

whats next week going to happen?

ok, on monday, need to take 1)Broadband lab, then 2)network lab..& 3)portfolio
wed, 4)french.lesson.
thus,5)TCS presentation, 6)BSP presentation.
fri, 7)french speaking test

wow 7 things to do.. in the space of 4 days.. gonna exert myself hard tmr morning..need to werk on my stamina.. cause today's napfa. i failed my 2.4. haven't ran for so long that i tot i was dying. i got a 'stitch' and was giving up sia.

1 more week

2005-03-04T20:13:00.000+08:00

next week is gonna be the last week of skool.
seems fast as compared a year ago. rushing to do all the projects as dateline are coming closer.

to all my frens out there, may u pass your exams with flying colour. i just wanna graduate and end skool life. i noe that i'm sick of skool but later on in life, i will miss skoool. cause the outside world is full of shit.. like politics.. alliances.. that's called the working environment.

ok, enuf of this shit. just posting to show that i'm alive and kicking. ah. tmr got napfa. just take it jsut to get cca points and have fun. more to post. next week is going to be hell. and also, i didn't think properly. y , y , and WHY did i take java prof. oh, its because its MCQ. big mistake. now got java assignment. and i'm in shit trying to explain the java. what lines goes to what line and what happens in the process. dateline: 13 march

WTH

2005-02-27T22:22:00.000+08:00

ok.. after some effort.. manage to upload some songs. not a lot but recommended by me.
just click at the music link.

that's just it. when i grow up, i wanna be a philospoher.

I do, I do

2005-02-23T14:37:00.000+08:00

the movie I do(X2) was funny but still has some more to go.. it has the singapore touch but i feel need more improvement..

abt the movie 'Hide and Seek', its a really show that to me has many twist.. i didn't expect the end to be like ......the child be sent to a mental ward.

now, have a fren called "A" who wanna know a girl called "B". but then lately haven been seing the "B". then "A" is depressed. what should "A" do? i swear that this "A" is my fren and not me. i suggested that "A" try to find other 'fishes' but that "A" very stubborn. see what happen now lar. i think that doomsday is near so whatever u do now, try to do good stuff.. look at the weather... it's hot like hell.. eh, "A" when can pass me the photos?

2005-02-21T23:41:00.000+08:00

wah monday blues.. morning had a presentation.. then during presentation i was to explain a diagram which i had seen for my first time.. i hope the teacher is lenient to me and pass broadband.. later had hacking lab..

i love this subject.. seems that now there are a lot of computer crimes ... it seems that it is rising rapidly but nevertheless increasing. hmm, then the lecture showd how a computer crime was commited and he got away with the loot.. man, i'm so itchy to try it out...

today very sleepy.. seems tired in everything i do.. like i'm being sedated. tmr have to meet my TCS3 teacher.. really sia.. it going to be sucky meeting her.. then another BSP meeting. hope that can finish by tmr.. and to proceed with the BB tech on the report.never had to do so many things in my life..

mebbe i was too hung up with last sem.. too slack.. that i dun wanna leave that sem.
dozing off writing abt this... need sleep ..this sat have to die die take napfa or risk having yur diploma retained.. esp the guys
man, it sucks was planning IPPT Then BMT, but what the heck... the 2.4km run still give me the creeps

Poof~

2005-02-20T20:08:00.000+08:00

something pops into my mind..

just take a look around the world and you're going to find that nearly all
mass media are owned and controlled by a handful of conservative capitalists.

is this statement above true... cause look at Chelsea. They are now dominating the Premiership.

2005-02-20T19:25:00.000+08:00

haha.. yesterday got a small so called "gig" near engineering hall 1.
they performed 2 metallica songs and 1 iron maiden. the metallica not so bad.. but the iron maiden, here comes the laughter.. the band then called upon thier fren to become a vocalist.. his voice was hoarse, and the song that they were playing was "Hallowed be Thy name".

that was quite a worse vocalist... can't really take it. so left before they finish the song.

tmr morning presentation.. using powerpoint slides.
diam tak diam, dah nak dekat exam.-> exmas is ard the corner

now to concentrate on Java proficiency.
no motivation to study..
how to motivate to study..
why study..
what to study?

ok. going to watch black hawk down on tv.. sure to be censored a few scenes.

EPS

2005-02-18T11:15:00.000+08:00

3 days of EPS.
and i m slacking . yeah. time off after the project is complete. but it sure is tiring standing at the panel. so i'm off to cyber to slack and play maple. work out a plan wih the other 2 members. so i have a shift of after 1 pm. that is the time i will be taking over the booth. but yesterday, there was a performance at engine. they played all the tunes that i was quite familiar with...

esp The Strokes- Last nite & Reptilia
&
Muse - Time is Running Out.
.. brought back memories when i was in the "rethomym".sweet memories that seemed to last.. finally graduating sia. and projects are coming to me in truck loads. got french project, broadband, java assignment. wow. and i still haven't start yet..no motivation to do werk already.

now currently DLing all the songs by green day.. some songs in the new album are quite good such as Favourite Son, Holiday and Give me novacaine.ok end of post

Constantine

2005-02-11T13:12:00.000+08:00

gong xi fa cai - to all Chinese fellows

looks good. another -matrix-lookalike- movie. mebbe going this weekend. happy with the interview outcome.. didn't get grilled. now left EPS and technical presentation.

DAMM!!~argh. tried to see if there were any hair salons that were open. but to no avail. wah.. so long holiday ah? shit man. or is it chinese custom not to sweep during Chinese New Year?

still doing french report... a very hard topic.dunno where to start. and class starts in 1/2 hr time. and i'm stuck at home. ooh shit.. shit happens

interview-fright

2005-02-09T15:42:00.000+08:00

Ok. This Friday morning gonna go for interview.. Its the dreaded TCS 3 interview. I hate TCS 3.. So much things need to be done.. but its almost over.. for TCS. left this interview thingy..

so "malu"/shy wanna go interview..no balls man.i lost them sometime ago.. they are the size of a fist.. how to prepare for an interview?

bored at home.. just started to play back online games.. like archmage(http://www.the-reincarnation.com),utopia and an online soccer manager game - hattrick.org (my Fav).
but there's a cons to these games.. u need time for them to update.. wait for turns. got error trying to update maple.. So today and tomorrow not playing maple.. so what am i going to do from now till thurs. all shops are closed today. tmr having plans to cut hair.. so that will look nice when on interview.too lazy to think what to do next..

where am i heading?

2005-02-06T11:29:00.000+08:00

tough question. since i got pes 'A', i heard from my army frens that it was tough.from their point of view.

"Pes 'A'/'B' recruits are having a tough time in camp. They have to run with full equip, with firle, extra 2 kg bags ..." -- a quote from W.

so, somehow i need to get a serious injury if i were to be allocated to another Pes.
or i should try to grow fat. Which i think is quite possible as i gained 1 kg. a Fucking 1 kg!!. so that makes my weight ard 56~57kg. still a long way to go if i were to be Pes 'BP'.

so i will pray hard that i will get police. Police. or CD.but then again, if i were to be in Pes 'E', all my mates would be gay ppl...EEeee.There has to be a way out of NS.

3 choices left. which one do i choose?gain weight/ Police/ get injured ?

fear of the future

2005-01-30T19:46:00.000+08:00

so tmr is the beginning of the new term. some more weeks then skool ends. argh. can say good bye to supervisor's comments and all that shit. but first must focus on studies. must not fail any subject. this sem is crucial. it'a a matter of life or death.. nah.. actually its abt time i graduate.

so now bored with the music i have. so i recycle music that i heard from the past.. like nirvana, weezer, the strokes.. yeah

I was a young boy that had big plans, Now i'm just a shitty old man

2005-01-20T23:12:00.000+08:00

ok. term test is over. not happy at the end . wednesday really sway day. can't think for broadband, so confirm fail. not sure abt java.. so touch wood . hope can pass..

then today must meet supervisor. i dunno what wrong with supervisors. so fickle minded. then there's the L&C supervisor. i kena the one that i dun fancy.. shit sia...

now, i'm thinking how life after skool. i noe NS but after that? can i find a job? as what then? infocomm industry? hmm, can't imagine that either. so how abt police? is so, better sign up now... i'm kinda of lost.. will i be able to find a job with my grades... if only i can see the future. sigh*

got feedback from a fren. Police is "Fun!". wokay i get it. but what does the economy look like in the future?

now its time to congratulate ferdaus for passing his bike at his first attempt. i noe nothing about bike all their test but hey, u passed on your first attempt. good job. so what driving license u after next? jet? navy? skateboard? unicycle? So What's Next?j/k lar.

my mind is really tired right now... i take no effort to study at all. so lazy. damm lazy. eh, tmr hari raya haji. if go fasting , all your sins will be forgiven. hmm, is it for real?

one music video that u guys should check out. IN BLOOM by NIRVANA..now going back to old skool rock.yeah.here's a link . the video will play FULL SCREEN. so don't be surprised.
In Bloom - Nirvana

Ole!!

2005-01-17T01:05:00.000+08:00

first thing first. congrats to singapore for winning the singapore cup. it wowed when it managed to scrape thru myammar and winning both matches against indonesia. i really wonder how indonesia could beat malaysia...

ok, so i watched the soccer till the prize prensatation ceremony. then i saw the prize money. it was $100k, US dollars. that was first prize. myammar got ard $10k US. the second and third i'm not sure.The indonesian should be damm lucky as once they convert their winnnigs, they are already millionaires.

Studying thru the night. hoping i can get things into my head. must resist sleep for tonight. cause i really want to graduate from this school. so putting all my brain power this week, before enjoying.enjoying on what, i'm not sure but don't want to think abt that either..so happy studying to all the guys. and good luck

can't sleep

2005-01-12T01:52:00.000+08:00

shit. today morning gonna have JAVA quiz. can't sleep yet till i can familiarise with all this java. cursing myself. but hey, its MCQ right? better than INNK. have to go through many mini projects. subnet here and there. the horror of doing it again. never.

i have a movie u guys should watch. meet the folkers. its not a "laugh-out-loud" kind of movie.an example would be kungfu hustle.meet the folkers, its kinda of "giggle-giggle" type. the jokes are quite lame. end of movie.
i'm deciding to be a police officer. seroiusly. looking at my grades, i can't see myself in an office environment.all this year is a whirl for me.

but i'm still quite unsure of one thing until now. last sunday i window shop at cash convertor. and i found some good items. they just released a green IPOD and it cost ard $350 bucks. not worth it. but there's another thing that my mind is settle on. its a drum set. at first i saw the toms. got a price tag. then i search for the snare. used evans drum skin. quite good. so i tot that i would buy the snare if it was cheap. but the guy said he sold as the whole set. for ard $240. i was like..

$240 for a 5 piece drum set?with the highhat.cymbals and seat. then i tot to myself. if they were to sell me at 240, then the seller would have sold it ard 80~100 bucks. imagine if i was to pay just 110 for a drum set. a really despo seller i would say.sigh. if money came from the sky.just like that. then got an apek also extra. ask how much the drum. touch here and there. ask me if got brand or not..ah pek ah.. i sell u the cymbals lar. u at home crash them together. make noise then can die faster. but on a serious note, the drums are not in tip top condition.

2005-01-08T20:03:00.000+08:00

seems that the days are moving quite fast. next thing u know, term test coming up.

today quite a full day. at noon , go makan at hjh maimunnah( not sure if correct spelling). the food there was awesome. like the smoked/bbq chicken covered with sweet smelling tomato sauce. taste so good.i would recommend any sauce with smoked chicken.there's this black sauce.the though of it makes my mouth drools... sure to gain weight but not to worry. these extra weights will soon be gone.

current weight :59kg. tmr weight : <59kg

my weight seems to be fluctuating quite drastic. this wed, i went for cmpb. quite a rainy morning. but did die have to be early. dun wanna to waste time waiting. ard 8 reach and the 8.20, i begin to take all sort of medical test. had a lot of test and "cough, cough" test. last test was the IQ test. quite troublesome as we had to go in by batches. 10 at a time. wish i could know the outcome of the test. test end ard noon. oops , i forgot. abt the weight. went there and the official weight was 55.5 kg. i gained only .5 kg since last time. and after i eat, i could go to 59. man, i'm mr fluctuating. or fluctuation-man.

after makan, walk ard joo chiat. eh, and one more discovery. a malay movie,"I know what u did last raye" is out. saw it selling at joo chiat. if any one if u wannna buy, one advice. buy it at 10 bucks. sadly, i was quite dissapointed in the movie. not quite funny. or mebbe i was already full while watching it. whatever it is, i remember why i hate to watch malay movie. BORING|LOW BUDGET|TAK LOGIC LANGSUNG. kungfu hustle was more enjoyable.

this mon first lesson. a test. abt calculations. hope braodband is easy. cause i seem unable to find time to study le alone play games. what has happen to time. where has it gone to. i sure miss the days when i had time for everything. CS, MU, all those games bring back memories. now its about to come to and end. one question remains to be unanswered. what will i do after graduating? go work? as what? IFC? nah, its impossible. futher my studies? i wish... so 2 words. sign on. but as what? police? army? or what are my chances of joining the police. or do i have to go there and sign up?

Hi, my name is Firdaus and i would like to be a policeman after reading an amazing book when i was in primary school. the book was titled,"Dear Mr Policeman." I read your book like a gazillion of times and is there a sequel to it? i'm your biggest fan. is this how it's gonna be? a policeman after all this. but what are my chances working at an office. i'm too lazy to work. let alone update this blog.

A Good movie

2004-12-29T22:08:00.000+08:00

a recommended movie to watch is kungfu hustle. The movie is full of crap. I , for once, almost died laughing. Then again, it was fun. Fun to watch.Quite enjoyable. If u wanna know more, go watch.

Now, i'm encountering short term memory. can't remember to do things they were suppose to be. mebbe its i'm growing old. or mebbe, the whole world is moving too fast and i'm the only one who can sense it. or there are more work to do compared to last sem.

Also next week there will be network securities quiz. and the test format... is........a word search. Wow, gee.. that's good. why didn't it appear in the exams/term test. hmm, there a thesis that i have been working on and it proves to work.

You tend to hate your SIP supervisor, no matter what cause they will give u a hard time. don't waste time in sucking them up. they know. i fucking believe that the programmer who did the software to 'organize' our time table took 3 times to pass JAVA certification and got 52%. judging by the layout of my time table,it truly sucks.

ARGHH, what the heck .6 more months and counting. Hope to graduate as soon as possible. New Year is ard the corner. and my New Year's resolution. Not to be late for skool. Always late. lesson start at 8. 8 o'clock still at home. Woo Hoo.

2004-12-20T23:36:00.000+08:00

Your World (Part One): What is your world made of? [boys]
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The show was good

2004-12-19T15:11:00.000+08:00

Ocean's twelve. good movie. must watch..i have some spoilers but i wont say it. just expect the unexpected... or better still, the scheme was already over in day 6.

And now my fears, they come to me in threes

2004-12-17T01:39:00.000+08:00

i'm in shit. so many thing to do.. still blur with the sem.
dunno what to do for TCS. just announce who our L&C supervisor is. Its my TCS teacher. tmr have TCS.Dunno do what, so many ppl from diff coz.. then tmr have french quiz.lastly, have to decide when to take napfa.wed, i think i better cancel as i got lab at 8. that leaves the option of taking it on tues/sat. sat is out as or sure, many ppl will be free and do it on sat. so that leaves tues, which i see myself as being the only one available for that day.some more i'm having blister on my feet while playing soccer.i thinking of delaying my Napfa. cause my stamina sucks.

really man, i need some more time to process all this shit that is being thrown at me. my brain itself is lost. keep thinging that the day is friday when its just tues.same goes for everyday. lost sia.

need to get away from all this.gonna watch ocean's twelve.i'm expecting the show to be a blast.

bevu

2004-12-14T09:44:00.000+08:00

ok, got myself a new blog.thanks, Mr Pey.

ahh. my last sem.like a malay saying "pelan pelan kayuh". for thosewho don't understand, a literal translate would be "slow slow paddle" but to make it more pleasing to the ears , it would sound like "slowly but surely".i'm almost there. must stay focus.

the links on music and videos are on some probs. they are now being evicted by ezarchives.com. they need a place to stay. pls help them.

2004-12-12T21:07:00.000+08:00

ok,been long since i last update.... now waiting for Mr. Pey to make for me a new look for my blog.

now having prob with the ezarchive.com. i tot this offer was too good to be true.. 25mb of storage and no band width limit... but i was wrong.. it was for a limited time only.. man... i was thinking of making an asf file which i could host there and ppl could watch the videos... argghh , so the hunt for a good, unlimited bandwidth is on again..

also, i heard from Mr. Pey abt a movie called "I Know What U Did Last RAYA!". sounds funny.. it a Malay comedy-cum-horror movie.. by the sounds of it, its full of crap.. i repeat..don't know abt the subtitles but in 1 week time, there's a good movie that abt to come out..

Its Ocean Twelve. Quite a cool cast, there's Catherine Zeta Jones.. yeah a babe with short vision.... dunno why go after the Michael Douglas guy... Open yur eyes.. but look like their marriage is quite lasting.. nv hear news from this age-gap couple.
ok, on with ocean twelve. its abt the gang after their plan was a success in the casino.. but the owner of tha casino won't give up and hunt them down.. so the gang are wanted in US so they went to europe .... and thats all i know abt.. to know more, go watch lar..

ooh yar.. another movie that looks promising.. the stephen chow "Kungfu Hustle".
looks crappy but i like..
i have even more reason to hate Linkin Park...wtf guys. they are re-using old tracks and now have jay-z in.. *shakes head*
sad to see a once "can-make-it" band go to waste..

2004-11-29T20:30:00.000+08:00

hey.. gonna change the skin of this blog.. going witha simple design.. but my color sense a bit off.. if u guys wanna preview it, its at http://spyde5.blogspot.com. ok thats all for this post.
gonna watch the incredibles.

2004-11-27T13:58:00.000+08:00

ok. new post. this weekend. i will be out. won't be home 4 2 days.
will be back n monday. ciao..

2004-11-25T23:41:00.000+08:00

its been a long time since i last posted. skool is abt to start in 2 weeks. les than that if u count the exact days. and minus yur sleeping time. woah.. its scary.

ok. what i did. after fasting comes the joyous part. collection of money. i think this is the last year that i can collect.. cause next yr is whn i'm in NS. and i dun think ppl will give me by then. argh. but hey... its a new transition in life.

ok ppl. there's a new catchy tune.. its by "the killers- somebody told me."
will be putting it up later this weekend. quite catchy but sad as the song is short.wished the band could make an effort to do a better one...

the song goes like this.

Breaking my back just to know your name
Seventeen tracks and I've had it with this game
I'm breaking my back just to know your name
But heaven ain't close in a place like this
Anything goes but don't blink you might miss
Cause heaven ain't close in a place like this
I said heaven ain't close in a place like this
Bring it back down, bring it back down tonight
Never thought I'd let a rumour ruin my moonlight

2004-11-18T17:36:00.000+08:00

process guard

2004-11-17T21:19:00.000+08:00

yeah. freedom is coming near. this week is the last week that i'm going to classes. hope that i can pass my subject and get the points that i needed.

now NAPFA coming. gonna train my stamina. its really sucks. i have never pass the 2.4 km test. except once and that was in sec 2. mebbe i need to have my raging hormones back come on hormones. WORK!!.

ok. now added some more songs. Man, i think i have a long list of fav songs.gonna update more bit by bit.

waiting patiently for 'The O.C.' new season to come. Can't Hardly Wait

2004-11-07T15:53:00.000+08:00

new stuff just added.
i just posted 3 videos of the strokes. yeah the strokes rock. u guys got to check it out.

now, contemplating on how to do sociology. what is gonna being type in the report.
i have no idea.just hoping that a miracle would happen.

2004-11-04T21:04:00.000+08:00

since i'm having a lot of free time, i'm adding some nice muse songs. u can find them by clicking the jukebox.

hari raya is now ard the corner. 10 more days. all my frens are now gone. my last sem is sure to be a bore. what can i do?

there's exciting news now on tv. in smallville, there's a new char. she's called lois lane. below is a pic of her.

how i wish anna was back on the OC. Man, that would be great even words can't describe.
and yes, i still remember her last line.She said ,"Confidence, Cohen, Confidence"

2004-11-03T23:03:00.000+08:00

ok. i finally added new files to my jukebox. esp The Strokes. 'cause they are good. not that so fucking good but nice music. god, how i wish i were as slack as them. just to play music. but i'm under peer pressure. everyone ard me has a mindset that education is important. it scares the shit out of me. what am i going to become in 5 yrs time? spider-man perhaps. are all human beings gonna to be born perfect with all this surgery thingy. i can't tell the difference with what's real and not. have we lived in a society where ppl have to be of high social status in order one gain respect? or are the society not socialing due to the current world affairs. with osama planning another attack, the bombing in the thailand. what is the whole world happening to?
or is this all part of an elaborate plan. a plan that will whipe out the whole population. plan ARMAGEDDON?

woah. the sociology class does have an effet on me.

and one more thing. good luck to those taking sub papers.

2004-10-31T17:57:00.000+08:00

i'm currently hooked on a new game. its called Maple Story. how do i describe it? the classes are like Ragnarok Online but the game is in a 'Gunbound' enviroment? what the hell i'm describing? - u may ask. go to www.mapleglobal.com to dl the game. the dl is only 170 mb. quite small compared to RO.

2004-10-23T21:59:00.000+08:00

P. i got a P. I got a P for SIP.
and P stand for Passed.and P also stands for PUSI.
yesh. there's a PUSI door in TP. mebbe i stayed too long enuf in TP to explore such stuff. i still miss ITAS. yeah. the western food. nothing beats it. chicken cutlet with fried rice. just ask for extra rice and man u sure will be full.what was the cost of the rice? 20 cents? at least i enjoyed it while it still exist.

congrats to those who passed their exams.
wish u guys all the best.
and good luck to those sitting for the supp papers.u will definitey need it.

went to the bazaar at geylang. quite bare ah. so many shops selling carpets. wtf sia.unless there's a flying carpet, which i doubt exist,i wont buy.i wonder, how do u drive a flying carpet? no steering and gear all that.
ok back at geylang. it was quite boring. nothing new this year. only more shop spaces.
mebbe i'm not in hari raya mood yet.
how do u get into the mood when u still have to attend school. arghh. some stupid socialogy class. man i hope it doesn't suck. cause i think i wont recognize any of them. yeah i know what to do. i will use the excuse of me fasting to act lethargic. yes. thats a good reason.hope it will work

Arsenal will kick Man Utd ass. i predict the score to be 3-2. what are the odds?

2004-10-22T10:39:00.000+08:00

It's friday.and also the day which is highly anticipated by others. y u may ask? the resluts are coming. nope, it ain't the Singapore Idol result.It's the exam result. for those who subscribe to the sms result thingy, they will be terrified at every sms starting frm today. a tip from a guy who been in TP for so long.
"Expect the unexpected."

good luck to those graduating. won't wanna repeat a semester right? haha.

today will be at home the whole day. wanna complete my game. almost complete.
sigh~ semarieARMSTRONG has left for pittsburgh.and i will always remember her last word "Confidence"

2004-10-19T13:06:00.000+08:00

boring sia. now fiddling with my gmail. just keep sending stuff to myself in order to get the invites. yeah. then i will have 5 more gmail accounts. think abt it. 5gb of stuff. wow.but actually i haven finish using up my first email. just reached 8%.

CS. yesterday was a bummer. had a hard time playing as my com was being infected with a pop up. lag everytime i click my mouse.how am i suppose to play like that.

gonna be updating later.

2004-10-17T22:20:00.000+08:00

yay. tmr begins the start of my holidays. but wait a minute. i can't do what i have planned cause i'm fasting.

i'm pretty sure that it is all planned out.the whole world is against me. first the school gave my project an extension of 2 weeks. right after the 2 weeks, fasting comes in. what's next? or yah. i forgot. i have vacation CDS. it really sucks to be me.

*shakes head*

how will i take revenge? i will go and spend my life on the computer at school. waste their elctricity. make them pay. or i could bring a bottle of clorox to school and kill the kois at the pond. or i could break the rules and feed the cat at the design canteen. take a swim in the koi pond.

Speaking of pranks, all my frens who have graduate/graduating.Y dun u ppl make a last prank with the school. for example ,pressing the yellow button in the lifts.
then u say "(1)/(2)/(3)/(4)/(5)"* choose one only.
(1)Help, there's a fire in the swimming pool
(2)The kois are drowning
(3)The school clock is spoilt
(4)ITAS canteen when open?
(5)How come the lift is slow. oh nevermind.<-- this works for me
more to come

2004-10-15T11:32:00.000+08:00

Mission Accomplished!
My Project has been reviewed and the judges are happy with it.
Haha. I guess i wont be spending my days in the lab, slaving like my fren ferdaus. HAHAHAHAHA!!!

have all the time in the world to watch the OC.Spolier for next week episode. PLS turn away if you dun want to be shocked.

I warned u once.

I warned u twice.

I warned u thrice.

OK.pls proceed below to read more abt the OC.

Ryan will get into a fight with Eddie. Theresa will leave. Seth is confused with the reason as to why Anna is leaving. Sadly, next week will be Anna's last episode. She wont be back. Not sure abt next season. I miss Anna. So fascinating. So sweet.